adj. (of signals or data) expressed as series of the digits 0 and 1

I’m a gray expanse with dark gray text and gifs of screen recordings. I’m quotes and free writing exercises designed and styled in an attempt to illustrate their meaning. I’m a row of emojis: ice cream cone, a grinning face, a desktop monitor. I’m best viewed in a Chrome browser. I’m Windows 10 at home and work; Android Lollipop on the bus and walking around my neighborhood. If you hover over me, I will remind you there is more to explore.

Growing up I was known as saj202ism or KaRaMeLKaT or a dozen plus other names. I was a 48 x 48 px icon with a cute, animated cactus hoping for a hug. I was a buddy profile filled with song lyrics and webding characters and best friends’ initials and countdowns. I was Century Gothic, bright pink or bright orange, occasionally bold. I was an away message with subtext. I only existed sometimes. There were times when I chose to be invisible. There were times when I didn’t exist at all.

adj. of or relating to the body as opposed to the mind.

I’m pink on the inside. Not bright pink, but it feels that way sometimes.

Sarah Joy Calpo is having an identity crisis.